Life's throwing everything my way, but I have to wait and work. These things are kinda like journals to me. I'm eager to have some things go my way soon! Good luck to everyone trying their hardest. Wish me luck as well maybe?

I've run out of motivators.

I miss thinking I was cool.

Thats what we all used to do anyway. It could be like old times, no? If I ever do anything on this site I will be amazed.

I rose from the grave. Ive thought about this place a lot but carried too much shame to return. Im not the same person I was when I first came here or even when I last left. The incredible and sad part about life is everything you love changes and you dont even realize you do as well. I hope all comes full circle and doesnt choose to follow this linear path it seems we have all been heading. I cant simply return to the old things I loved and expect it to give me the same things it used to. Wherever I go even out of pure nostalgia alone, I will at the least expect new experiences. Doing the same thing at a different time yields a different result. I first came here to be myself. I could and I did. I made enemies as well but this was the first place I ever found anything resembling a home or sense of belonging. Ive been gone too long to know what it is now, but come the time I will be glad to share my insight over the years and some good fresh experiences. We have all come a long way. Instead of being sad about alone, why not be sad about it together? And for the weirdos who choose to acknowledge the good in it I welcome you too.

I feel like a lot of people who have left this site wonder why people still use it when there is so little left here. Or something like that. I do wonder what is new like actually new here each time I come. And everytime I come, I leave for longer. I suppose the reason I come here is I feel like I owe NG something for all the time I've been here. I maybe come for nostalgia or to see any creator do something new. Everytime I come here I see less and less. People posting less and less. Newgrounds is not the center of creativity it was and when it was most of it was garbage trolling anyway. I suppose what made NewGrounds so special to me back then was the "retard" charm of it. I was a stupid kid and still am for sure, but I don't find the same things enjoyable anymore. Madness was a huge passion of mine the whole time I've been here and a solid foundation for me being here for sure, I even bought the shirt, but it is just another example of why NG has become so desolate..

Original Content. Thats what NewGrounds had going for it a while ago, how different NG truly was. I always saw some awesome games or some deep animations and there was just so much charm in it all. Well at least that's what I felt. I have seen this site just rerun the same shit every year, pico day, madness day, clock day, there's not even much to them anymore and it is just the same washed up shit that is being overglorified that didnt even have an actual sequel. (talking about you Pico...) It is hard to get new ideas and shit running when you keep running lower and lower on both money and people though so I do get that, but the years have just taken their toll. These last few years I see people only get on for, 1. Nostalgia 2. Feeling of Debt 3. Their Hope Died Here 4. Job

Unfortunetly, the bullets keep coming in at NG and it's edgy days are over. But, most importantly guys, MY edgy days are over. This whole post was a stupid ramble that was only about half-thought anyway. I know NG deserves a better farewell than this, but I'm the type of trash person this site deserves so, eh. You guys want me to get emotional? Well I really never planned on leaving or anything it just seems I'll never use this site like I used to and never could anyway. Like I was saying though, this is my farewell. A bitching ramble on NG. I'm mostly mad because I won't ever have my fun again here. Thanks for some fun in my early years. And psssst!~ As I'm leaving though I do want to explain that I don't blame Tom for the downfall of the site. I get it's hard to keep it rolling. People nowadays don't have the same sense of humor  or general taste he does. I wouldn't want to change my site in a way I didn't want it either. This is his site and I hope he is happy where he is. It still has things to be proud of. I know it sounds like I am contradicting myself, but I do owe some loyalty and love here. With that I take my leave.

P.S. This is so everywhere because that's just where I am right now. Not that I really ever put any personal stuff on here, but it's all whatever.

Over a year since my last post. I guess happpy 6th year for me on NG. Glad to see the site still in use.

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Just a month until my 5 year mark on NewGrounds.  Not a long time compared to other people but I mean... It counts for something right?

Even notice I was gone? Do you guys care about meh?

Have just been a tad off lately.  

Love you baby. ;*